Nah amek kao. this is how i look after work. berbeza sungguh yahh. its 5.30 in the morning and i still can't sleep. going out to Aiman's to have my morning breakfast later. what shall i eat eyy ? teh cino is a must. i think i'll have ondeh-ondeh. macam da lame tak makan ondeh-ondeh. im ohh-soo-hungry, but i macam no appetite to stuff food into my big tummy. im gettin boncet-er and boncet-er everyday. im disgusted by my own self. hha. it's not like i drink every single day. i dunno. i think i'll just have to cut down on my alcohol intake :/
im meetin Aan later. not sure of the time. i realised that i've been drifting further from you, bby. i know why. you know why. we know why. my jobs. i rarely start my day sending good-morning-messages to you. i rarely end my day sending goodnight-ily-imy-messages to you. cause i'll be sleeping in the morning, head to the toilet straight once i dahh bangun. siap-siap for work, makan siket den i kua for either St. James or IMM. and kadang-kadang, i don't even bother to check my phone. pastu once i finished everything, i head for home. change, take a shower and Zzzz sleep. that's my life. how pathetic.
bby, im really sorry if i've been neglecting you for the past three weeks. i spent more time with my girls than you on my off days. im sorry to keep you waiting for my calls or messages. im sorry if i prioritize my jobs over you. im sorry over what happened yesterday. im sorry if i hurt you in anyway. im sorry for shouting at you over the phone. im sorry if my attitude is killing both you and our relationship. im really sorry for everything. i just hope things will be back like it used to be when we first started our relationship.
I missed you. i missed those times. i missed going out with you. i missed the trips to the libraries. i missed going to West Coast park with you. i missed seeing you in your uniform. you know how much i love seeing you in your uniform. hha. i missed hanging out with you and my girls at the red chair. remember when you always pretended to feel tremors when Dyla sat on the chair ? hha. yea, i missed that too. in fact, i miss every single thing that we do together. even the tiny little bit counts.
hmmm. i wonder if you missed me too.
